Change is part of parenting. You watch your children change from newborns, to toddlers to teens in what seems like the blink of an eye. As a parent, you change and grow with your child. You watch, wonder and live even more fully as your child learns to ride a bike, roller skate, hit a baseball or score a soccer goal. Birthday parties, Halloween costumes and Christmas mornings are all so much more meaningful witnessed through the eyes of a child.
Through all of those changes and life lessons you spend hours and hours thinking of what is best for your child. You look for the best school, the best summer camp, the best tutors. You make mistakes and corrections. And you hope that you don’t screw them up too much. Then there comes a time when you are at the precipice of a child leaving home and you realize: “This is it”. No more do overs. No more adjustments. No more time. It is like turning in your final exam and you don’t yet know if you have passed the test. You look back on a childhood provided, full of smiles, tears, good days and bad.
Everything is on the verge of transformation. There is a blank space where the future lies. Will he be a success? Will he be happy? Will he be safe? Will I be ok? Who am I when I am not a full time parent? What will I do with all of this time?? The majority of my life has been devoted to a human being whose success and happiness will ultimately take him away from me. In the end you realize your child has grown into a man that is ready to tackle the world and become a productive member of society. It’s a bittersweet ending but also a time of new beginnings. And more change to come.